preparing for winter

:: today i went shopping with a dear friend who is so exited for spring. every store we went to she went straight to the non-existent swim suit section. she was determined to find a new wardrobe full of the coming season's bright colors and hot finds. i kept telling her it was too early for bikinis and cut offs.

you can't prepare for something that's not here yet.

:: well, who knew i would was speaking to myself when those words escaped my mouth?! the past month has been full of questioning. questions about where i will be come may 5th when i am a college graduate with no job, no roommate and no sense of direction on where in the WORLD [literally] to move. but i was gently reminded today that you can't fully prepare for a season that's not yet here. sure you can brace yourself for what's ahead and gather basic supplies but just as my friend wasn't able to find "the one" when it came to swim suits i can't expect to know what life holds come may. all i can do is tie up my boots, button my pea coat and prepare for the winter...which is exactly what we are in the middle of.

:: i have been feeling a great lack of purpose lately but that is because i have been expecting to feel a sense of purpose for a place where i have not yet arrived. after all, what good would a swimsuit do when it's 20 degrees out? my purpose right now is not what i think it should be. my role now consists of not letting senioritis take over my mind body & spirit, being intentional with the people around me, having coffee dates with my freshman and being still when it comes to life's unanswered questions.